It\\\'s time to talk about it.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. You talk, I'll listen. That's how I like to think about things. But in order to get the help you need, you gotta talk. Alright, so what does that mean? I myself have a terribly difficult time talking about things. I like to hold it all in (a huge part of anorexia, one of the biggest character traits is withdrawal, and quietness). Most people don't see this. I'm pretty much known as the girl who is really loud and outgoing, and admittengly sometimes obnoxious. That's me on the surface though, and in comfortable situations. When I'm out in public and by myself, I just try to seclude myself and be invisible. Don't ask me why this is, I seriously think it's just one of my anorexic character traits, and that's okay. I don't have to change that. But I often wonder if my loudness is also just a defense mechanism, me trying to tell the world that I don't really care what anybody thinks about me, but that's largely untrue. Well, I am most comfortable with myself, and don't essentially care what anybody does think, it all doesn't really make sense. What comes first, the chicken or the egg? Don't get be started on that one...I could start thinking about that one for hours! 
NEDA's tag line is "It's Time to Talk About It" and rightfully so. How can we stop eating disorders if we don't spread the word and be advocates!?!??!?!WE CAN'T!!!! So, today, just do one thing! As NEDA says. It's time to talk about it. So spread the word to a friend, post a facebook status, send a tweet, an e-mail, a text, and tell your friend about pro-ana sites and why they are so bad. Thanks for talking about it with me! 
My thing that makes me smile today is the song Smile by Uncle Kracker!!!! You make me smile like the sun, fall outta bed, sing like a bird....... :) 
Now while I go off to eat a massive sandwich and attend contemporary catholic theology! 
-M